In an interview with Tracy Smith from CBS Sunday Morning, Carrie Underwood opened up about her three miscarriages in 2017.
Smith was covering Underwood’s new album Cry Pretty when she asked the country singer what she meant by the title track speaking to “a lot of the things that have happened in the past year.”
In 2017, Underwood took a hard fall while walking her dogs, landing on her face. As a result of the fall, the singer said she had to get between 40 and 50 stitches, but this was only the beginning of her trials that year. With tears in her eyes, Underwood told the reporter, “2017 just wasn’t how I imagined it.”
The reporter inquired asking the singer to elaborate. Underwood responded saying that she planned for 2017 to be the year where she worked on new music and had another baby.
“We got pregnant early 2017, and it didn’t work out,” Underwood said, holding back tears. “It happens. And that was the thing in the beginning — it was like, ‘Okay, God, we know this just wasn’t your timing, and that is all right. We will bounce back and figure a way through it.’
“Got pregnant again in the spring, and it didn’t work out. Got pregnant again early 2018 — didn’t work out. So, at that point, it was just kind of like, ‘Okay, what’s the deal? What is all of this?’”
Smith then asked Underwood if there was ever a point when she was looking up and asking God “’What are you doing to me?'”
Getting choked up again, Underwood said, “I had always been afraid to be angry.
She continued, “Because we are so blessed. And my son, Isaiah, is the sweetest thing. And he’s the best thing in the world. And I’m like, ‘If we can never have any other kids, that’s okay, because he’s amazing.’ And I have this amazing life. Like, really, what can I complain about? I can’t. I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid. Can I be mad? No.
Still, she said, “I got mad.”
Smith reported that one night after what Underwood thought was another miscarriage, she curled up next to her son Isaiah and prayed like Underwood says she has never prayed before.
“I was like, ‘Why on Earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can’t have a kid? Do something. Either shut the door or let me have a kid,’” she recalled saying to God.
“For the first time, I feel like I actually told God how I felt. And I feel like we’re supposed to do that,” the country sensation continued.
Underwood said a couple of days later she went to doctor to confirm that she had had what she thought was her fourth miscarriage, instead, she learned her pregnancy was just fine.
“He heard me,” she said, exclaiming that God heard her prayers.
Underwood and her husband Mike Fisher are now expecting their second child.